Thanks to your selfishness.

Thanks to your unrighteous act.

Thanks to you being a bitch.

Everything has to change.

All I can say is, "FUCK YOU BITCH! MAY ALL RAPIST COME AND RAPE THE CRAP OUT OF YOU TILL YOU BLEED AND DIE IN THE STREETS BEING BANG DOWN BY ALL THE CARS IN SINGAPORE"

Life isn't always smooth sailing in every aspects of life.

People come, people go. Simple logic, simple law of life.

Life seems to be at constant war. Always going all out.

People just see the surface and think that's all to it.

Usually left alone.

The only people that stays are probably those you have been through difficult times with and that they are willing to just simply be a listening ear rather than talking you out of it.

I guess the one year has been a pretty tough journey. I do not expect alot, but just for a few that will stick with me throughout regardless of situations.

One date, two people. One alive, one dead. It's probably my limit already.

I think....

I think I may fall apart soon.

So school has finally hit its toil on me with all sorts of things. I feel like I'm trying to get rid of this bugging feeling at the back of my head every single day. Dealing with all the unfinished business with my assignments or tests or projects heading my way. Life suddenly became all about books. Dislike.

On the other hand, it has been a wonderful journey in school. I'm making more friends and kinda like hanging out with them. It is just all about studying together, be crazy and all the late night supper. I think it isn't a very healthy lifestyle, but its only 2 years after all. Why not live it all out fully??

Jan orientation was great and I get to meet alot of new friends. Right now, one is sitting opposite me doing his work. Its quite epic how we ended up studying or hanging out for random supper at 3am. Ridiculous but thats what I call living in the moment.

Well, heading back to assignments.

One phrase to remind myself
"We only live once" - Carlos

So it seems 2 months is barely enough to accept the facts.

 Fuck I hate having to feel this way every now and then.

Am I really expecting too much from myself?

 Feeling distant from people nowadays and I don't know what is the root of this.

 2013. Please, be better.

 G. I hope you'll help me through still.

I really need a break from everything.
Like every single thing.
From the world.
Just want a friend or two who is able to keep me company till the day is gone.
Smoking away.
Drinking away.
Starring away.
Talking away.

I used to think I'm a tough person.
Telling people that "In tough times, just take it easy"
Believing that tough times don't last but tough guys do.
But its all different.
I feel defeated.
That one loss is enough.
I feel like I can't stand properly anymore.
Crumble everytime the wave hits.
Now I know I'm not tough after all.
All was a lie to myself.
Everything just snaps.
Hitting the wall again and again.
I. Just. Can't. Get. Over. It.

Sky is raining
Room is cold
Mind in a mess
You're gone
Now a skyfall

 Mind over everything else right now.
Can't control the thoughts and feelings.
Have I gone crazy?
Can I just see you once more?
To put myself at ease.
Why do I not have the time for you?
Why?
Why....

So school has finally started, and I'm already into my 5th week! Time sure passes quickly when you're all caught up with everything around! Life has been real busy with school assignments, homework, tests and quizzes to prepare! On top of that, there are some other commitments to fulfill. Although busy, I still love my life a lot! University is really a new phase of life and I'm thankful for all the people I've met so far! From classmates to orientation camp peeps, they are simply a bunch of crazy people. Or I do attract those? Haha. Whatever. Anyhow, it has been an enjoyable journey thus far and I do not regret my choice! I still believe my spot in SIT, UNLV is God given and I'm really thankful for it. A long way to go, but there will be lots and lots of awesome things coming up!! Speaking of which, I've been planning quite a few stuff here and there. I'm really excited to see all these things come to past and believing that it will grow into something much more than what we see right now!! :) PEACE OUT YO!

Finally, one Friday afternoon solely dedicated to chilling. A good end to the busy week of many things. Fusionopolis' Starbucks is a pretty good place despite it being a "working area".. Nice environment and actually, awesome seats! :) Staying tune to the new week that will be coming up soon. I hope that things will be netter for the new week to come.

Its been almost a week. And yet that face of his, the tears he shed still remains intact in my memories. The lost of someone close is really painful and there isn't much we can do to ease that pain. Watching the footprints left by her, all I can say is "Let go and let God. I'm sure she's at a better place right now beside the Lord". How much can these words strengthen a man who seem to always be strong all the time. I wonder. I can't help but feel heavy hearted this whole week. Even though she's not directly related to me. But I need to walk out of this and just look forward. Nothing can be done and I want to believe its part of His plans for this to happen. Although sudden, I think He has something up His sleeves. Just hope that he is coping well and that we can talk soon. Like a hang out or something. Ok. Enough. Time to step out.