from today onwards, I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to care about everything about you.. it's not as if I've not given you the chance and everytime I give in, you took advantage of it and acted as if nothing really happened... cant you spend a little more time in understanding the reasons for ALL the things that I've done?? it's not I'm doing it on purpose or what... and I've always tried my best to get home as sooN as I could... I even took cab home so that I wont be reaching home at a later time... do you know HOW MUCH BLOODY money have I spent on cab fares to reach home earlier??? if all those amount are being saved up, I can buy myself dozens of new handphones and do other things and not always ask money from my mother???



there's always chances for you to cherish but you always chose to take it as if you have won the quarrel... do you know that you are DAMN childish?? your actions are worse than kindergarten children and I assure you that they are much more smarter than you this only primary grad. jobless old man... think staying at home to take care of me when I'm young is GREAT?? think about all the things that mum did for you!!! THINK THINK and THINK!!! dont act as if you are rich and I'm always robbing you when I'm taking like 4 bucks from you... if your 4 bucks is precious, then DONT give me... what's the use when you just keep on blabbering about how much money I've spent and not knowing how to earn money!! you dumb asshole... look who's the one NOT doing work!!!



at least I've work some little jobs/work at sph which I earn my OWN MONEY! and who's paying my own hp bills??? ME!!! who paid for your's?? it's MUM!! get it?? it's MUM!!! you dumbo!!!! think you are so great?? go look for work la!! dont stay at home for all i care and dont ever try and depend on me when you grow up... if you do, I'll just do EXACTLY what you did!! and you will feel what I've felt this few years...



everyday when I reach home is the most unpleasant moment in my entire day... getting scolded by you for minor dumb things just makes happiness FLY off in an instant... and you think I can still eat my dinner after all the fucking things that you've said to me?? it's YOU who dont remembered the things that I've told you N times and there you will do crapping about all the things that I've TOLD you.... dumb la... dont think that my mum is on your side and you win ok?? it's the mentality which counts! you are so freaking childish and it's disgusting to see you watch cartoon at your age of 62... if you think you can win me which Mum's help, GO AHEAD! I'm not stopping you and will never stop you!!



back to today's event, I'm sorry to that someone for being scolded because of me... I feel bad and I'm glad your handphone wasnt confiscated... if not I'll feel worse...



and today you did it again... cant you GROW up??? hey! you're 62 for your information and I think it's time you should ponder upon your actions and words... dont you think that your words are hurting to me??? saying that I'm stupid and stuff??? COME ON LA!! call me stupid and I can show you what stupid means!! I'll just ruin my WHOLE life for you to see and prove that your words ARE TRUE!! how about that??? I'm sure you will feel DAMN happy one la... cause you WIN already what... huh?? feel good right??



sometimes I wonder, do you ever think about the things that you said to me which does go through your brain as I always suspected?? do you know that I've always felt hurt when you said those things??? and I cant express it out cause mum also dont understand my feelings?? both of you will just ignore me when I needed you both the most... ok, at least when I needed mum... where were you?? you were outside if your old ah peh friends drinking Kopi!!!! drink all you want and dont come caring me one day wishin that I'll take care of you after that... DREAM ON okie?!?!



but all I really want you to know is, DO THINK YOUR WORDS THROUGH BEFORE SAYING IT!! WORDS ARE THE LETHAL WEAPON IN KILLING PEOPLE... that's in case you dont know ANY fucking thing about it... =)